19th , April '08
11:55 PM
Hi Blog,
Finally the last day of the college 4 this week..... aaj i managed to reach the stop on time but 10 no picked us up!!!! reached college n found that gumti was closed... so no fags today!!! got utterly bored in the college today....was wandering alone.... n the sun was too hot...... so reached bak @ 4 n i n "d" decided to meet @ la cafe..... to my surprise a rp of 10 juniors were already there....hehe..... so "d" came n my god she was looking gorgeous...... god i just fell 4 her.... so we sat there till 7... n then decided to take a ride again.... so we set out on bypass.... she insisted to drive but she coudnt.... we were enjoying the cool wind n today both of us were calm n dint talk much......just enjoyed the closeness..... then reached bak home @ 9... went to 2 marriages...met arjun n some class mates there.... now bak home n surfin net.... weeks gonna end n this week was fantastic.......
n "d" i loved ur dress... it did tempt me.....
n yes one more achievement i dint have even a single fag the whole day.... so feeling good
Good Night
Friday, April 18, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Summer's killing me!!!!
17th, April, '08
11:49 PM
Hi Blog,
Heat is killing me.....baap re kitni garmi ho gayi hai!!!!! well got up late as usual......in the orning was having acidity due to the non-veg n vodka....had medicine n left home n again missed the bus so sat frm palasia....... reached college n got a good news that the submission has been postponed till Monday.... so was happy coz had too much to complete....then went to gumti n when i was about to light the fag i noticed some red drops on the shoes n realised that my nose was bleeding due to the heat..... then after some rest had lunch n ghume idhar udhar college mein.... then had presentation @ 3 so went there n my bad luck aaj mera chance nahi aaya......
lab mein was getting bored to hacked shruti's phone...... hehe bechari pareshan hai mujh se...
n han aaj library mein rohan ki maze liye the "k" ke naam se to sunka hua tha.....to @ 5 he came in my bus so was teasing me all through coz he knew "a" is siting.....
me n "d" decided to go to a movie in the evening so i called up but her phone was not reachable....finally could contact her @ 6:30 so we decided to go 4 a ride as there were no shows.....
we left @ 7 n took the bypass.... it was n nice ride....peaceful.... the air was also cool.... we were close enuf.... then i decided to go to "wanna puff" above my college....when we reached medi-caps i went inside to show her my college....then near girls hostel met ruchika...... had a chat with her 4 some time....then as i was abt to leave rahul sir came out of his house... n then to bhaisaab total maar li sir.....
then after college we went to wanna puff... had a nice time there.... she really liked the place.... then we set 4 our return @ 8:30....on our way bak we talked a lot.... but i did commit a mistake..... i am sorry....neways we reached home @ 9:15......
to tell u frankly i am feeling so happy n close to "d"...... it just feels gr8.... n i really feel bad 4 wat i did......i wish i could undo it or go bak into time...... plz try to forgive me....
so came bak home had a chat had dinner talked to mom abt day's happening.....
n now going to have some phone conversation
Good night!!!!
11:49 PM
Hi Blog,
Heat is killing me.....baap re kitni garmi ho gayi hai!!!!! well got up late as usual......in the orning was having acidity due to the non-veg n vodka....had medicine n left home n again missed the bus so sat frm palasia....... reached college n got a good news that the submission has been postponed till Monday.... so was happy coz had too much to complete....then went to gumti n when i was about to light the fag i noticed some red drops on the shoes n realised that my nose was bleeding due to the heat..... then after some rest had lunch n ghume idhar udhar college mein.... then had presentation @ 3 so went there n my bad luck aaj mera chance nahi aaya......
lab mein was getting bored to hacked shruti's phone...... hehe bechari pareshan hai mujh se...
n han aaj library mein rohan ki maze liye the "k" ke naam se to sunka hua tha.....to @ 5 he came in my bus so was teasing me all through coz he knew "a" is siting.....
me n "d" decided to go to a movie in the evening so i called up but her phone was not reachable....finally could contact her @ 6:30 so we decided to go 4 a ride as there were no shows.....
we left @ 7 n took the bypass.... it was n nice ride....peaceful.... the air was also cool.... we were close enuf.... then i decided to go to "wanna puff" above my college....when we reached medi-caps i went inside to show her my college....then near girls hostel met ruchika...... had a chat with her 4 some time....then as i was abt to leave rahul sir came out of his house... n then to bhaisaab total maar li sir.....
then after college we went to wanna puff... had a nice time there.... she really liked the place.... then we set 4 our return @ 8:30....on our way bak we talked a lot.... but i did commit a mistake..... i am sorry....neways we reached home @ 9:15......
to tell u frankly i am feeling so happy n close to "d"...... it just feels gr8.... n i really feel bad 4 wat i did......i wish i could undo it or go bak into time...... plz try to forgive me....
so came bak home had a chat had dinner talked to mom abt day's happening.....
n now going to have some phone conversation
Good night!!!!
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Holi-day
16th April , '08
11:57 PM
Hi Blog,
Another Usual day.....today college was off due to Indore bandh.... so was layzing around till late....woke up @ noon.... had to go to shilpa's place 4 the ppt n file...... till 2 i was just wandering here n there..... then went to bathe.... n went to nirav's place took file n gave it to "d" .... she being so nice n sweet made me diagrams....n i being such a dog made her angry..... sorry ..... such a sweet person...... then spent the afternoon making the ppt n in the evening went to nirav's place n completed the file...... then came bak @ home n got ready 4 some party....party mein met manit ,.... had some vodka....enjoyed the food n chicks......
just came bak home........ edited the ppt n now talking to "d"........
kal its gonna be a tiring day as i have to write file n give presentation so wish me luck....cya tomorrow...
Good Night
11:57 PM
Hi Blog,
Another Usual day.....today college was off due to Indore bandh.... so was layzing around till late....woke up @ noon.... had to go to shilpa's place 4 the ppt n file...... till 2 i was just wandering here n there..... then went to bathe.... n went to nirav's place took file n gave it to "d" .... she being so nice n sweet made me diagrams....n i being such a dog made her angry..... sorry ..... such a sweet person...... then spent the afternoon making the ppt n in the evening went to nirav's place n completed the file...... then came bak @ home n got ready 4 some party....party mein met manit ,.... had some vodka....enjoyed the food n chicks......
just came bak home........ edited the ppt n now talking to "d"........
kal its gonna be a tiring day as i have to write file n give presentation so wish me luck....cya tomorrow...
Good Night
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Happy Happy
15th, April '08
11:58 PM
Hi Blog,
U wont believe what happened..... after talking to u last night i went to sleep.....then at around 12:30 'D' called up n said " SHREYE I THINK THIS IS NOT GONNA WORK"...... n frankly i was shocked.... i thought why does it has always to happen to me... i was so happy after yesterday evenings events n now she calls up n says...... so we started talking n i convinced her.......she was saying that her friend is telling her this n she doesnt want to break his heart...... i was not ready to give up now..... so i practically marketed myself n made my point n tried to convince her..... we talked till 5AM n in the end i convinced her coz i was too afraid to hang up ...... so after i was sure things r fine i slept.....woke up @ 9 n as usual missed my bus so took another bus....... went to college n wasted the day ...... then after making a lame excuse in class went to meet shrey n told that me n "D" r bak again... he was kinda surprised (shocked i suppose).... but i told him his mistake n he accepted it... i was happy...... so then i went to attend the lab n went bak home @ 5......
then went to nirav's place had few fags n left 4 the class..... when we reached the class we came to know we're 1 hr late so we went to TI n i called "d" there.... shrey left soon n i n d hanged out 4 an hour...... then came bak home.... had dinner....went to terrace as mom n dad had gone..... had few fags talked over the phone sang some songs... n now was talking to "d" when realised i almost missed u!!!!!!! n han aaj rohan ki kafi maze liye!!!! shayad wo AP kha ke baitha hai!!!
n suprisingly shrey messaged "d" n apologised....... funnny bahut formal banda hai!!!!!
chal now another good day.......
g2g bak to phone :D
Good Night
11:58 PM
Hi Blog,
U wont believe what happened..... after talking to u last night i went to sleep.....then at around 12:30 'D' called up n said " SHREYE I THINK THIS IS NOT GONNA WORK"...... n frankly i was shocked.... i thought why does it has always to happen to me... i was so happy after yesterday evenings events n now she calls up n says...... so we started talking n i convinced her.......she was saying that her friend is telling her this n she doesnt want to break his heart...... i was not ready to give up now..... so i practically marketed myself n made my point n tried to convince her..... we talked till 5AM n in the end i convinced her coz i was too afraid to hang up ...... so after i was sure things r fine i slept.....woke up @ 9 n as usual missed my bus so took another bus....... went to college n wasted the day ...... then after making a lame excuse in class went to meet shrey n told that me n "D" r bak again... he was kinda surprised (shocked i suppose).... but i told him his mistake n he accepted it... i was happy...... so then i went to attend the lab n went bak home @ 5......
then went to nirav's place had few fags n left 4 the class..... when we reached the class we came to know we're 1 hr late so we went to TI n i called "d" there.... shrey left soon n i n d hanged out 4 an hour...... then came bak home.... had dinner....went to terrace as mom n dad had gone..... had few fags talked over the phone sang some songs... n now was talking to "d" when realised i almost missed u!!!!!!! n han aaj rohan ki kafi maze liye!!!! shayad wo AP kha ke baitha hai!!!
n suprisingly shrey messaged "d" n apologised....... funnny bahut formal banda hai!!!!!
chal now another good day.......
g2g bak to phone :D
Good Night
Monday, April 14, 2008
GOOD START
14th April , 08
11:59 PM
Hi Blog,
Finally the week ended n today was a good n fresh start.....slept till late in the morning...... got up did the usual chores..... went online n was surfing , suddenly Deepa buzzed me.... was kinda surprised after wat happened last week,.... we had a chat 4 long n again were discussing the things n all....trying to clear away the misunderstanding.....but i think she had made a decision....after sometime she said she cant chat ne more so should she call up....... i asked her if we could meet in the evening..... n to my surprise she agreed..... we decided to meet @ "Barista"....usual hangout place..... so at around 2 i got up frm pc n was wandering around in the house till 3 after which i had a bathe.....
After the lunch got ready n deliberately wore the blue provouge shirt...;)....... n told mom a lie that i am going 4 project work...... then went to TI n had a Fag n went to barista!!!!!!!
Deepa as usual came 10 min late in the mean time had a small talk with the person we usually meet @ barista!!!!!!!!!
She came n we sat on tables in front of each other,.... today surprisingly there were many ppl i knew there like hitesh sir n pankaj....neways we sat n she was constantly staring at me n smiling which kinda made me feel uncomfortable!!!!!!!
some how i started a conversation n we went on talking initially i was the one who was telling all abt what ever happened in the past few weeks n all...... in middle we used to talk abt what mistakes i did n all....
then suddenly she asked me if we could move to the sofa!!!!!!!!!
we sat close to each other n started talking again!!!! i realised what mistake i had made.... n in the course we decided to give it another chance.... though both of us r scared but whats the harm in giving it a try....
i have now learnt to take my own decisions n do what i feel is right....
we sat till 9 n then i realised its too late so we decided to go...... in the parking we hugged each other it felt gr8............
It now feels relieved that all's going well now.... may be we're bak together.... i am happy
finally things r going on better side.....
mom n dad were also cool at home......
Thank u god !!!! i hope the week turn outs to be good
Good Night!!!!!!!!
11:59 PM
Hi Blog,
Finally the week ended n today was a good n fresh start.....slept till late in the morning...... got up did the usual chores..... went online n was surfing , suddenly Deepa buzzed me.... was kinda surprised after wat happened last week,.... we had a chat 4 long n again were discussing the things n all....trying to clear away the misunderstanding.....but i think she had made a decision....after sometime she said she cant chat ne more so should she call up....... i asked her if we could meet in the evening..... n to my surprise she agreed..... we decided to meet @ "Barista"....usual hangout place..... so at around 2 i got up frm pc n was wandering around in the house till 3 after which i had a bathe.....
After the lunch got ready n deliberately wore the blue provouge shirt...;)....... n told mom a lie that i am going 4 project work...... then went to TI n had a Fag n went to barista!!!!!!!
Deepa as usual came 10 min late in the mean time had a small talk with the person we usually meet @ barista!!!!!!!!!
She came n we sat on tables in front of each other,.... today surprisingly there were many ppl i knew there like hitesh sir n pankaj....neways we sat n she was constantly staring at me n smiling which kinda made me feel uncomfortable!!!!!!!
some how i started a conversation n we went on talking initially i was the one who was telling all abt what ever happened in the past few weeks n all...... in middle we used to talk abt what mistakes i did n all....
then suddenly she asked me if we could move to the sofa!!!!!!!!!
we sat close to each other n started talking again!!!! i realised what mistake i had made.... n in the course we decided to give it another chance.... though both of us r scared but whats the harm in giving it a try....
i have now learnt to take my own decisions n do what i feel is right....
we sat till 9 n then i realised its too late so we decided to go...... in the parking we hugged each other it felt gr8............
It now feels relieved that all's going well now.... may be we're bak together.... i am happy
finally things r going on better side.....
mom n dad were also cool at home......
Thank u god !!!! i hope the week turn outs to be good
Good Night!!!!!!!!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
SUN-day!!!!!!!!
14.04.08
12:15 Am
Hi Blog,
Today has been as usual a very boring sunday........ day started off in the worst way........got up @ 10 am wo bhi dad ki shouting par........ till 2PM wat i got was only scolding frm mom n dad on how can i be so irresposible n all..... dad made me do cycling n during which i kinda snobbed on how my life's all fucked up.... today i decided not to all R n S............. at around 2 DAD WENT TO OFFICE N MOM TO SOME PLACE SO I DOZED OFF.....HAN I FORGOT TO TElL..... had a kinda fight with pratik during which i hurt my foot badly.... so slept off so that i cannot feel the pain.... got up @ 4:30 wo bhi dad ki shouting se....had lunch.... then watched few episodes of scrubs..was a nice way o relax.............
in the evening shrey called up n it felt nice talking to him.... then did nothing considerate the whole evening was just killing time.....
had dinner @ 9 n then when mom n dad went away went on the terrace 4 some fags........
rohan called in the meanwhile.... we had a long talk n i vent out all my frustration....then was feeling good.....
now just thinking of going to sleep....hope the next week turn outs to be better than the last one!!!!!
good nite
12:15 Am
Hi Blog,
Today has been as usual a very boring sunday........ day started off in the worst way........got up @ 10 am wo bhi dad ki shouting par........ till 2PM wat i got was only scolding frm mom n dad on how can i be so irresposible n all..... dad made me do cycling n during which i kinda snobbed on how my life's all fucked up.... today i decided not to all R n S............. at around 2 DAD WENT TO OFFICE N MOM TO SOME PLACE SO I DOZED OFF.....HAN I FORGOT TO TElL..... had a kinda fight with pratik during which i hurt my foot badly.... so slept off so that i cannot feel the pain.... got up @ 4:30 wo bhi dad ki shouting se....had lunch.... then watched few episodes of scrubs..was a nice way o relax.............
in the evening shrey called up n it felt nice talking to him.... then did nothing considerate the whole evening was just killing time.....
had dinner @ 9 n then when mom n dad went away went on the terrace 4 some fags........
rohan called in the meanwhile.... we had a long talk n i vent out all my frustration....then was feeling good.....
now just thinking of going to sleep....hope the next week turn outs to be better than the last one!!!!!
good nite
Saturday, April 12, 2008
deserted!!!
12.04.08
12:30 A.M
Hi Blog,
Today's been quite disturbing.....lost a friend today....... really feeling bad..... i feel so guilty 4 not taking my own decisions by myself...... first time its been that some body has slapped me with words...... all these weeks i have been thinking..... n i am really confused between ppl,things,my life..... it feels so lonely down here..... no body repects me..... i am a laughing stock..... no body trust me..... they all make me feel as if i am the most wrong person here.....
pl i beg u try to understand me..... i know i am still immature....cant take my own decicions.... am easily convinced by ppl...... but i am not that bad? or really am i.....
days r going pretty rough....deepa's gone..( she said "consider me dead"...... rohan n shrey r too busy n i think they have started realising that i am the most fokat person n they have stuff to do.... mom's cribbing abt my weight all day....dad's always frustrated over me..... i know we're going thru difficult times....pratik as usual is bullying me!!!!!!!!!!
nirav n me r having some differences........... lost some really good friends ( miss u gitesh n mudita)..
maybe some thing's wrong in me..... scores of ppl cannot be wrong....but mein bhi kya karun..... may be i am not fiting into place....
MBA entrance is a distant dream.... n i am not ready 4 TCS.... dont know what will happen....
why did we grow up.... we're happier as kids......
desperately trying to quit smoking but cannot......... i am feeling like i am the worst person to be with......
my confidence in my self has shaken....... some time bak life was going on smoothly.....but now.....
i even dont have a shoulder to cry on....... may be i 'll have to learn to be my self.....
12:30 A.M
Hi Blog,
Today's been quite disturbing.....lost a friend today....... really feeling bad..... i feel so guilty 4 not taking my own decisions by myself...... first time its been that some body has slapped me with words...... all these weeks i have been thinking..... n i am really confused between ppl,things,my life..... it feels so lonely down here..... no body repects me..... i am a laughing stock..... no body trust me..... they all make me feel as if i am the most wrong person here.....
pl i beg u try to understand me..... i know i am still immature....cant take my own decicions.... am easily convinced by ppl...... but i am not that bad? or really am i.....
days r going pretty rough....deepa's gone..( she said "consider me dead"...... rohan n shrey r too busy n i think they have started realising that i am the most fokat person n they have stuff to do.... mom's cribbing abt my weight all day....dad's always frustrated over me..... i know we're going thru difficult times....pratik as usual is bullying me!!!!!!!!!!
nirav n me r having some differences........... lost some really good friends ( miss u gitesh n mudita)..
maybe some thing's wrong in me..... scores of ppl cannot be wrong....but mein bhi kya karun..... may be i am not fiting into place....
MBA entrance is a distant dream.... n i am not ready 4 TCS.... dont know what will happen....
why did we grow up.... we're happier as kids......
desperately trying to quit smoking but cannot......... i am feeling like i am the worst person to be with......
my confidence in my self has shaken....... some time bak life was going on smoothly.....but now.....
i even dont have a shoulder to cry on....... may be i 'll have to learn to be my self.....
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