deserted!!!

12.04.08
12:30 A.M

Hi Blog,
Today's been quite disturbing.....lost a friend today....... really feeling bad..... i feel so guilty 4 not taking my own decisions by myself...... first time its been that some body has slapped me with words...... all these weeks i have been thinking..... n i am really confused between ppl,things,my life..... it feels so lonely down here..... no body repects me..... i am a laughing stock..... no body trust me..... they all make me feel as if i am the most wrong person here.....

pl i beg u try to understand me..... i know i am still immature....cant take my own decicions.... am easily convinced by ppl...... but i am not that bad? or really am i.....

days r going pretty rough....deepa's gone..( she said "consider me dead"...... rohan n shrey r too busy n i think they have started realising that i am the most fokat person n they have stuff to do.... mom's cribbing abt my weight all day....dad's always frustrated over me..... i know we're going thru difficult times....pratik as usual is bullying me!!!!!!!!!!

nirav n me r having some differences........... lost some really good friends ( miss u gitesh n mudita)..


maybe some thing's wrong in me..... scores of ppl cannot be wrong....but mein bhi kya karun..... may be i am not fiting into place....

MBA entrance is a distant dream.... n i am not ready 4 TCS.... dont know what will happen....

why did we grow up.... we're happier as kids......

desperately trying to quit smoking but cannot......... i am feeling like i am the worst person to be with......

my confidence in my self has shaken....... some time bak life was going on smoothly.....but now.....

i even dont have a shoulder to cry on....... may be i 'll have to learn to be my self.....